I've spent my whole life looking for answers only to find the same results... I grind, I succeed, then it all crashes down into a sea of heartbreak and frustration... last year I gave my life to God but I was fearful and not really all in...
I'd stop making time for God, I'd slide right back into my old habits... I'd cover up who God intended me to be with this belief that I had a reputation to maintain...
It's all just a bunch of junk that we teach ourselves... about a month ago I sat up in bed on a sleepless night of sadness and anger depression and hopelessness... I gave all of it to God and when I say all of it.. I really mean ALL of it... that was the turning point... I can't explain it but that's not my place to explain it... I started the next morning feeling like my life had a purpose... I struggle still but I know that no matter what, Gods got me in the palm of his hand and he's directing me towards my best life.. I'm very intentional about making time for God and listening to what he puts on my heart. I believe that most Christians are half in and still so concerned with what people will think..
A very special person to me once said "I don't
wanna be a half assed Christian" and that really hit home for me... so that's what I practice daily... I'm all in.. God doesn't sleep on me so the least I can do is not sleep on God... my life is blessed in every sense... i have storms in my life but that's just God leading me to my purpose and I am grateful that he loves me enough to prepare me for his purpose for my life... #mywalkwithGod